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Hands were the subject of many discussions in our household. My mother used to trace the head and heart lines on my left hand and say, "Don't get too violent. You could kill someone." If those two lines connected, she warned, a person would be branded as aggressive, short-tempered, or mentally slow. It was spoken of by Thai ancestors, but I dismissed the story as pure folklore.
This was never an issue for me. My palm lines snake past each other, with only a trickle connecting them. It was, though, for my brother. His palm lines collided and diverged angrily across his palm. Whether it be a coincidence or not, my brother grew older with a fierce temper and smoldering grudges. I grew feebly, contracting illness constantly and succumbing under a weak will. Years later, however, our roles switched and I was an angry, explosive preteen with no filter on my mouth. I still constantly have fits of rage, but I've begun to learn how to stifle them temporarily.
As I grew, so did my hands. Others' hands were developing calluses from rough sports or strenuous activities while mine remained smooth and pale. Friends would hold my hands and comment on their texture. The same couldn't be said about my fingers. They were (and still are) war-worn after a lifetime of nail-biting, paper cuts, and burns. My thumbs carried the worst of the stress.
My mother constantly berates me to stop biting my nails. She says I look mentally insane. I've tried to put an end to it, but it's a bad habit I've yet to kick. I suppose I don't want to embarrass her in public. She imagines the whispers trailing me in the local shopping mart: 'What's wrong with that boy's hands?' 'Do you think he has a problem?'
Perhaps my hands know more than I give them credit for.
This was never an issue for me. My palm lines snake past each other, with only a trickle connecting them. It was, though, for my brother. His palm lines collided and diverged angrily across his palm. Whether it be a coincidence or not, my brother grew older with a fierce temper and smoldering grudges. I grew feebly, contracting illness constantly and succumbing under a weak will. Years later, however, our roles switched and I was an angry, explosive preteen with no filter on my mouth. I still constantly have fits of rage, but I've begun to learn how to stifle them temporarily.
As I grew, so did my hands. Others' hands were developing calluses from rough sports or strenuous activities while mine remained smooth and pale. Friends would hold my hands and comment on their texture. The same couldn't be said about my fingers. They were (and still are) war-worn after a lifetime of nail-biting, paper cuts, and burns. My thumbs carried the worst of the stress.
My mother constantly berates me to stop biting my nails. She says I look mentally insane. I've tried to put an end to it, but it's a bad habit I've yet to kick. I suppose I don't want to embarrass her in public. She imagines the whispers trailing me in the local shopping mart: 'What's wrong with that boy's hands?' 'Do you think he has a problem?'
Perhaps my hands know more than I give them credit for.
Literature
prairie hands
you focused east and
bathed in sundrips,
took one look
towards the west
and crumbled
it.
you kept your head
forward and your gaze slipped
not, for these columns
do not shake.
and your gait sank,
and you sang.
you kept up
the best of
arcs and adorations,
latent heel
in active aspiration,
but had not
the grace for this
escape.
and with your hymn
you courted dusk.
Literature
napowrimo
1. i've stopped fearing
my nightmares
and when i dream about
dying
i just see your face
and get your songs in my
head and stuck in my
throat
and i understand you now
i get it.
i get it
i get it.
now stop.
2. this is the darkest timeline.
this is everything that can go wrong
going wrong.
this is worse than you dying
this is worse than the burning
this is worse than you overstaying your welcome.
i cant even talk to him anymore
cause it just sounds like
he's sticking his fingers in his ears
and screaming how he's
notlisteningnotlisteningnotlistening.
which i should have done a long time ago.
3. i try to comprehend it sometimes
cause i kn
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reaching you
Everything that reaches does so
both inward and out. I can’t reach you
without going in up to the shoulder
of what I am, without pressing my face
to something crying out
to be both wild and asleep.
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A true story of a memory from my childhood. Sometimes I take my hands for granted.
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